I used to be so happy, have such potential. I try to stay cheerful now, put setbacks in perspective, treat others fairly. Why have my personal relationships been such disasters? Because I stand up for myself and don't buckle under to someone who wants to be overbearing and tell me what to do and how to think? Maybe. Bad choices? Maybe. I'm not going to analyze it anymore. I'm weary of it all, life, tired, spent, exhausted. Tired of struggling to keep things together. WWIII? I can't wait!